The end of the day - by Average Joe

And so once again - Plug your ears. Chow Time !

4:45 p.m. tonight's meal is one that´s ok. A burrito slice of cheese. Rice - salad and a cookie - it´s not great - but, you can fill up on it. And now - another important time of day approaches.

Mail time. It´s always a spirit lifter to receive mail from a loved one - family or friend. It´s a life line to them - the free world. A way to keep love and care flowing. Doesn´t matter if it´s full of interesting news ect, if it´s just a note. That´s ok. Or news of every day life. You touch home base. You get a smile or laugh - or share a problem or a sadness that may have occurred. It´s the sharing ! So, yes, it is important !

It always sucks, when the mail man passes and doesn´t stop at your door ! I got two so I´m good ! Can you sense the smile ?

7 p.m. not much on T.V. tonight - so I´ll hang out with
the guys till 10 p.m.
Then catch "N.Y.P.D. Blue". Hopefully they won´t show Dennis Franz´s butt, that could scar a person for life ! They only did it once - but, that was once too many. Time to play jeopardy. Play with my two neighbors. Well I lost tonight. 12 right for my neighbors, 5 for the others, 10 for me.

We play or I do, cause it keeps the old brain oiled. Same reason I do crossword puzzle and read. Plus I learn a lot and it passes time. A lot of what I do - it´s just getting through a day. I get through today then I´ll worry about tomorrow - tomorrow.

And yes, I´ve done these same things over and over for years. And sometimes I´m just going through the motions ! Not really experiencing them. But, that´s part of survival too. I´ve survied 28 years of them. By my math 10,120 such days ! And yes, there´s times when I just want to say screw it. Just lay on my bunk and let the world pass on by. I even allow myself to have a pity party for a day or two here and there ! Then that old voice says - get your butt up and be about something. It´s that spirit - or will - that knows no quitting !

True I need to get a life. I´m working on it. Who knows what the future holds. And I decided long ago I will stick around to see where it all leads. And find things to enjoy along the way. Remain myself not what this place would make of me.

Time for "N.Y.P.D. Blue" ! I´m back 11 p.m. Time for lights out - in the hall and in the cell. T.V. stays on - time for me to hear the sirens´ song - crash open their rocks. They call me with promises of delights I´ve never dreamed of. Like from the tales of Ulysses !

So, I shall bid all of you good night ! Another day in Paradox !
Take care and stay strong in the fight !

Sincerely
Average Joe !